Fret

Fret

Internal, infernal revolution

That plays out in my thoughts

Consumes my head

Unsettled flesh and bones

In my own body

Blue blood oxygenated

Spilling red, red, red

When self becomes one’s own oppressor

When self and ego don’t play fair

Undertow, colossal tsunami of emotions

Breathe, breathe, feel the belly rising

Bloat me like I’ve consumed too much bread

A carbohydrate exhaustion

Makes my mind dark, limbs like lead, lead, lead

I need a little pick me up

A break from winter’s cold

I need to accept that I’m growing old, old, old

Stutter, shake, collapse and sleep now

Wake up in the morning

Feel the same

Like a lottery where your ticket’s never winning

The borderline between the sane and insane, insane, insane

I just want a moment of normal

Whatever normal may be

Or is such a state sustainable

Just need to be happy to be me, me, me

That’s the only way I can ever be free, free, free

Unshackle thoughts, beliefs and assumptions

Clear the shit straight out of my head

I seek the clear and pleasant waters

A place devoid of unfounded fear and dread, dread, dread

I know I know I’m not my thoughts I’m thinking

Always without ever a reprieve

Go to hell ego voice and demons

Break the shackles self-imposed and be, be, be

Edmonton, AB, Canada